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Among Friends
02:16
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Were you happier then?
All these feelings you kept from your kin
Was it worth it for them
Confusing your pride with your sins
It slipped through your hands
You're deteriorating again
Are you happier then?
Were you happier then?
Were you happier then?
All these feelings you kept from your kin
Was it worth it for them?
Confusing your pride with your sins
It slipped through your hands
You're deteriorating again
Are you happier, man?
With the secrets you've shared among friends
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Lafayette Park
05:10
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The last six months have been a turn around
When I thought was up was only falling down
At the edge of a cliff am I a jumper now
It’s a bottomless pit I’ll never hit the ground
The one that I’ve let down the most is myself
And the monster I’ve become is a product of my long neglected mental health
Oh, I wanna get you back but you’re fading to my past
And I’ve always had a bad memory
Slow dance with me
In Lafayette park
I’ll let you take the lead
As we fall apart
Been talking to strangers on the internet
Tell ‘em the feelings that I can’t suppress
My therapist says I gotta get some rest
Don’t give my number, waiting for your text
The thing that I miss most is my side of the bed
When I sleep with your ghost I don’t know if it’s in my heart or in my head
Oh, I wanna get you back but you’re fading to my past
And I’ve always had a bad memory
Slow dance with me
In Lafayette park
I’ll let you take the lead
As we fall apart
We’ll waltz among the trees
Cause I can’t dance alone
We’ll watch the falling leaves
And I’ll watch as you drive home
Everyone tells me I’ll get better
But I’m not better yet
I’m not better yet
No I’m not better yet
I’m not better yet
Better yet
Better yet
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3. |
Noise
03:10
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I took your photos off my wall today
Never thought it’d be so hard to see your face
Where they hung they left a shadow in the paint
To match the holes I’ve had to carve out of my brain
I’ve been writing songs that use your name
I tried using my own cause I’m the one to blame
Every night I have this dream things haven’t changed
But when I wake up with the sun, oh it's all in vain
Will I be whole again
Collect my organs from the ground
Piece me back together with what you found
Will I be heard again
Can you hear me crying out
Or will my voice just drown inside this noise
When did I become a weight you had to pull around
When did I become a burden you had to carry
Tie me to an anchor, watch as it drags me down
Then I’ll finally swing the axe I’ve been meaning to bury
Will I be whole again
Collect my organs from the ground
Piece me back together with what you found
Will I be heard again
Can you hear me crying out
Or will my voice just drown inside this noise
Inside this noise
Inside this void
Will I drown in this
Noise
Inside this void
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4. |
Four Years Ago
04:19
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Am I the same man I was four years ago today
Cause when I look at you I still feel the same way
And it seems that I wandered far from the house we built with our own hands
And you reached out to me as I got myself stuck in the sand
Now I'm watching old videos that we used to make
And I can hardly recognize the guy I'm seeing on that tape
We’ve got the same scars and we share the same name
What’s happened since those days
It's not your job to save me from my self
No it's not your fault I couldn't ask for help
I can’t expect you to just wait for the storm to end
As you say goodbye it starts to rain again
As the seasons change they weigh heavy on my mind
I’ve been sinking deeper losing footings all the time
The clouds are moving in, overcast in my eyes
Bet you’re running for shelter I’m stuck paralyzed
It's not your job to save me from myself
No It Isn’t your fault I couldn't ask for help
I can’t expect you to just wait for the storm to end
And as you say goodbye it starts to rain again
It seems that I got lost in the woods
And you stood by my side for as long as you could
Before I die oh I should
Try to find the guy you fell in love with
And before you go would you just tell me this
Am I the same man I was four years ago today
Cause when I look at you I still feel the same
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5. |
4AM
03:08
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She's calling me babe
And pulling my hair
Doesn’t know my name
But I don't fucking care
We met at the bar
Just across the park
Two empty shells
Trying to get off
We are only strangers
Parallel lines separating
But come four am I'll be alone again
We're trying to be whole
I'm jumping your bones
Surrender control
Pretending it's love
Never more than strangers
Unlocking the door as I sink in
Would it be weird if I asked your name again?
Only strangers
A couple of kids trynna fit in
We’re skin on skin but i'm stuck in my head
You remind me of my ex
I think I might regret
Bringing you home
You’re collecting all your clothes
I'm asking if you'll call
I should have known
We are only strangers
I'm reading the signs that you're giving
Won't you call your car and leave me alone again
We are only strangers
Believing the lies that we're saying
How is it four am again?
We are only strangers
Parallel lines separating
It’s 4am and I'm all alone again
We are only strangers
Parallel lines separating
It’s 4 am and I'm all alone again
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6. |
Ghost
04:22
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I should’ve let you die from that heart attack
Back in two thousand and five I wish that I didn’t react
Embracing unknown contents of the coming days
Call it a faithful leap or playing it safe
I'm still tending to the bruises that you left on my soul
And the mental tax you charged I'm still in debt to that toll
In a dozen years the dust collects on untouched stepping stones
Will I ever shake it all
You were a ghost
Haunting my home
You were a ghost
Haunting my home
You were a ghost
Then in two thousand sixteen I received your written word
With a postmark from where you had been, a place I’ve never heard
And in negative degrees I recited your deceit
Spelled out for me
I was a ghost
Haunting my home
I was a ghost
Haunting my home
I was a ghost
Maybe better off alone
Mom and Meg and me, we’re all getting along
You’ve been replaced by a better man who fills a space
You could never hold
Now you’re a ghost
Haunting my home
Now you’re a ghost
Haunting my home
Now you’re a ghost
Haunting my home
Now you’re a ghost
You are a ghost
You're haunting my home
You are a ghost
You're haunting my home
You are a ghost
You're haunting my home
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7. |
Does God Hate Me
04:44
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Does god hate me cause I hated him first,
Or is it the other way around
When I take my final sleep will we share some harsh words
Or will silence be the only sound
I’m asking you
Why am I alive
When better men are in the ground
When I was seventeen my life had just begun
My world was green and blue
Now at twenty three I'm sleepwalking to oblivion
And my friends are asking what's happened to you
what's happened to me,
to what I used to be,
I’m a let down who was such good company
And I'm not sure I can do next time
I've lost my will
Will I lose my mind
Am I just passing time until my day arrives
Just Waiting on that sun to quit rising
Cause now I'm lost at night, grasping at shadows
And at this point I've got nothing to lose
There’s ghouls in the dark
And I keep missing my mark
It's in the pages if only I could understand the language
Ooh
Ooh
Why am I alive
Why am I alive
Why am I alive when better men are in the ground
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